Very disappointing retreat
Very disappointing retreat. The first day all male participants didn't feel hardly anything of the medicine. During the integration session on day two, the integrator gaslit us/lied to us and said we didn't feel anything because we all had mental blockages. Because we all complained the second day we did get a good dose of ayahuasca and felt the medicine very well/strongly. Apart from that the main integrator was always agressively pushing participants to do extra medicine (bufo, kambo) with supplemental cost. That gave me the feeling it was more about money than about our wellbeing.
For me it led to a breach of trust: day 1 I felt nothing, day 2 the experience was very nice, I just can't be taking these transformational therapies in such an atmosphere of randomness. Some shamans also felt very inexperienced to me. The food, accommodation and team were very nice on a human level though (that got them the second star).





